BLACK LOVE II
They ask us if we hate ourselves
And the answer lingers
As if lost in a chasm of uncontained thought
We process and redress and re-process
Our answer like perms
In beauty salons
And the images before us change color
With the help of New Growth and Revlon
And still there is silence
I refuse to believe we have lost the essence of who we are
The road we were once marching upon
Is now covered in blood stained tears of mothers
Begging for answers
Wondering how things got this far
We are trying one car at a time
The soul train
But someone is always moving our pieces
And we are still failing to forgive
Looking for answers in the all the wrong places
Hoping our relief may be in a closed cabinet or
Hiding in the preachers cuffs and freshly starched creases
We look to blame the hand of a white man
But the hand that is in the way
Clearly belongs to one that is battered and bruised
That is awful tan
Standing in and out of different hand out lines
Hopeless situations and children looking up at us with little ashy faces
Bending knees at night
By unmade beds, searching, hoping looking
For some sort of direction from above
I know there has to be more to this story
More lines to the scene
What happened to black love?
It's the feeling George had when he moved up with Wheezy
the think I can attitude it takes to tackle a mountain
the notes seen by Stevie.
Its the stick to it nature that allows us to survive
the hold on spirit we call on
when a family loses lives
the arms that wrap us up in the middle of the night
the hugs and kisses that reassure you that after darkness
there will come light.
The woman that holds on in spite of her man
that promise to pay it back when and if you can.
Holding hands and waiting for the answer to come over the line
the little noses you wipe of children you didn’t father
but still don’t mind
The endless smiles at sunset
daydreaming about the lips you haven't kissed yet
Running your hand down to the base of his spine
the glance he returns that screams
"yeah she's mine"
The glue that makes you stay when the money runs out
the make a way Saturdays; and the Sunday shouts
The feeling you get when you see her walk down the aisle
the vision you get of your future together
that seems to go on for miles and miles
The leap of faith into the unknown
finally letting out all those feelings
you hadn't shown
Being afraid to say yes, but daring to let go
Listening to reassurance as you lay across his chest
Its recognizing his scent when he walks into a room
Writing letter after letter,
hoping he will be home soon
Sitting between grandmas 2 worn out ashy knees
Getting your hair greased and braided
Before off to Sunday school
The dreams you once wrote in secret
That no one ever sees
Buying a new dress in hopes that he sees you
When you stop to buy one thing
and realize you have to buy two.
The moment after the moment after twisted in new sheets
having your breath taken away at the very second
when your eyes meet.
Friendship paths joining and forming one bond
Making plans, buying rings, returning arm in arm.
Holding up his shoulders when he is too weak to stand
Recognizing him at the family picnic and introducing him as "your man".
Not being afraid to be weak and allow him to carry you
submitting and listening and even learning a thing or two.
Its been around for years way before Cliff loved Clare
its the thing that makes rainbows
and sticks them to the air.
It’s the think I might attitude that drives your goals to print
Followed by the know I can actions
That compelled us as a Nation
As we elected our first black president
Its family structures that don’t have missing pieces
Coming running to the porch when the street lights came on
Stopping to help an elder carry a bag across the street
Not being afraid to correct a kid that isn’t yours
Its the inhale followed by the long kiss good night
its the magic that makes even the wrong times seem right.
We once lost our way but I’m telling you its coming back
it holds you and arrests your fear like Fred's sudden heart attacks.
Its unquenchable like water, hotter than any fire
beyond the expanse of earth and sky
cant get any higher
A force you can't kill
please listen when I tell you
Black love is so real